That’s it… I have lost you

I do not know why my soul is sorrowful, I do not know what has enslaved me, but it is unlovable to live without you, I do not have my world without you.


That’s it… I have lost you… There won’t be anything else. You went away, hurt me and went away without saying goodbye. You left pain and tears, wounds in the heart. I gave you love and warmth, so why did you leave me? I gave you my heart…and as I see it was too little for you. Do you want to know why I envy you? One of the reasons is that I fear. I am terribly scared that you will kiss other. I am scared that you will say “I love you”, but not to me. I am afraid of being joyful and sorrowful, but not together with you. I am afraid that you can hold by the hand, but not me. I am afraid to see you in somebody else’s embrace. I am afraid that your loving words will be said but not to me. I am afraid, because you are too precious to me. Why should we love if love is so painful! Why should we love if love is a mere suffering! Why should I feel this passionate feeling if it only causes me to weep in the night!”


We will part and never meet again, but it is not a secret that I liked you. Maybe I loved you too much and thought about you days and nights. Love, it sounds so sweet, but my heart is empty. You came to my life but for a very short time and disappeared like a shadow in the dark. It is not a secret that I love you. Maybe you did not like my name or my sad laughter. Maybe my heart would not know how to beat for you”

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